Bear with me, I’m going to migrate some (all?) posts in from DabbleDoIt.
I was reading a post Yvonne at Joy Unexpected wrote about being an “old blogger” in a sea of “new bloggers” who are all about branding, media kits, SEO, etc. She also mentioned how she misses how blogging used to feel like a community and it’s morphed into this monster that’s all about business and book deals.
Way back when, my old blog was a place where I feel like I did some of my best writing. A few years of that and I started to doubt myself. Instead of blogging about something I would analyze my idea, criticize it and never write. Eventually I shelved it. I sort of wish I hadn’t but sometimes a fresh start is needed.
Writing is one thing I enjoy. Everything about it is fun, even the challenge of finding a new way to start a sentence instead of “I” or “It’s”. So while I’m trying to decide whether to consolidate everything or just double post for a while, I’m going to import some of my favorite posts from over there. It’s a new blog so there aren’t many.
In an effort to keep myself honest, I’m going to post my weight loss stats here.
Starting Weight: 190 lbs. (ugh! although I’ve been told I carry it well, everybody thinks I’m at least 20 lbs. lighter than I really am)
Chest: 43″ (braless measure because my bras make this measurement vary)
I will weigh myself weekly and post the results, probably in the sidebar.
After suspending my training almost a year ago, not a day has passed that I haven’t thought of Tae Kwon Do. I would find myself performing a poomsae or kicks while waiting for water to boil on the stove, I’d stare at the mirror and practice punches and blocks.
It’s undeniable, Tae Kwon Do has become part of me, part of who I am. Grandmaster was right, once a Black Belt, always a Black Belt.
So what do I do with this knowledge? Do I practice on my own, fine tuning what I have already learned?
What I did was contact one of my instructors and let her know that I’m ready to come back to training. I’m not going to be there 3-4 nights a week plus a private lesson and instructorship training. I’m just going to class two days a week to train, and that’s it.
While I’m a bit embarrased with the weight I gained while on hiatus (I did no training/exercise of any sort. NONE!), I’m excited to be going back. Returning to the dojang has given me the motivation to get off my ever expanding ass and get my shit in order. My diet is no longer slapdash and unstructured, I’m following a Zone-ish plan (very similar to BFL but a bit more relaxed and less gag-inducing protein shakes and rubberized chicken), and I’ve started doing pilates at home in order to get myself ready for P90X.
Big plans for self-improvement is in the works, I just need to pace myself so I don’t burn myself out before I get really started.
It’s interesting. Since I left Tae Kwon Do I’ve been carrying around this restless feeling, like I forgot something. Turns out it was that feeling of not-finishing my training that has haunted me.
Coming back to where I think I belong feels good.